Not that I'll keep up with this thing

I am so slack. I had dreams and high hopes of having a chronicle of my pregnancy thus far and yet I've posted nothing since June!!

I'm 31w5d at this point and I'm having a boy. This has been the craziest journey I've ever been on and I honestly cannot wait to meet the new man in my life.

I feel like it's better late than never and I'll be attempting to post more in the very near future. It sure would be nice to connect with other people out there who can relate to what I'm going through/been through!

Scared

So today is the day of many days, I guess. I have my first real appointment with the OB at 3:15 and I'm so unbelievably scared. I can't stop thinking about the what ifs . What if BJ didn't make it? What if something happens? This is getting to the point where I'm starting to feel like I may need to start seeing someone because I know this isn't healthy at all. I am not much of a prayer but today I pray. A lot. That we hear a heartbeat. And we get to see little one. I am starting to really freak out.

Our first children

So this is Dewey and Gertrude. I got Dewey before I even met Josh, when this sad little emaciated dog was wandering the parking lot at work. He soon became my confidante and eventually Josh's best buddy (at least that's how they appear whenever you see them together). Dewey is hands down the best dog anyone could ever ask for and I cannot imagine life without him.
He's been through puppy classes, learning that cats aren't chew toys and the eventual adoption of his little sister/girlfriend/wife/foe, Gertrude. To say that Gertrude has been a challenge is really being nice. She has her moments of total cuteness and she's finally coming around but, to put it nicely, she's stupid. Flat out stupid. She's almost as big as Dewey but has yet to grasp that she can jump on the bed herself (she's 7 months old!!!). Instead, we either have to watch her struggle to get on the bed or grab her by the ears and help. Also, we're still shaky on saying she's housebroken. But, we love her just the same. Well, after months and months of threatening to get rid of her. I guess I'm starting to wonder how these little guys are going to adjust to life with a new baby. Personally I'd like to believe they will be angels and everything will go smoothly. I have no doubt whatsoever that they will never attack or feel threatened by a new baby. Rather, I'm worried baby will get too much loving from them. Also, why is Dewey so standoffish from me lately??? He was really needy and protective of me, even before I found out I'm pregnant. Now he's finally starting to come around to me again, after almost a week of sleeping on the floor.

I need some suggestions on how to make this transition easy. There is absolutely no question that these dogs will forever be a part of baby's life, no matter what. We will all have to learn to adjust!!

Where I am today

Still pregnant (as far as I know). I've started to feel the sickness that everyone talks about so much. Funny thing is my sweet almost husband feels it too sometimes. Funny how that works, right? We are putting the finishing touches on our wedding this weekend and will await the barrage of family that will begin appearing come Thursday afternoon. I'm excited and anxious to get this part of our story over with. Truth be told, I'm ready to get to Charleston and get on that giant boat!

I broke down and purchased a onesie over the weekend. I had told myself repeatedly that I would NOT go crazy and buy baby a ton of stuff but this one has sharks on it and I couldn't resist!



Cute, right? Pay not attention to my crazy almost husband and his way of hanging the outfit for demonstration.

Anybody else have a dog that is (or was) acting weird during your pregnancy? My older dog Dewey seems to be freaked out by me lately and I have no idea where this is coming from. He used to snuggle me all night and now he won't even get on the bed with me. I think I may post more about my other babies tomorrow. Yes, I have 2 dogs and 2 cats and I love them all as much as this baby I'm growing.

Still pregnant

In fact, I had my levels drawn and I'm officially officially pregnant. For a worrier like me, this is very exciting news! I have a feeling, however, that these are going to be very long months until December 23rd. How do you not worry about being pregnant? Does the fear of miscarriage ever let up??

I am feeling pretty good and am settling in to the whole idea of this being real. I've blabbed to anyone and everyone that I'm pregnant, even though I know I shouldn't. I have had absolutely no sickness yet, which I guess is good. I need to stop reading about pregnancy though because I am freaking myself out. I guess that's the bottom line.

Wedding planning is almost complete and the big deal is in close to a week. I know, I talked about being pregnant before I talked about the wedding. This is something I've struggled with the past few days. I know it's common now but there is still a part of me that feels really stupid for getting pregnant before I got married. Don't get me wrong, I love this baby already and I'm only 5 weeks and 5 days pregnant. I will be the best damn mother he/she could ever ask for. I'm just old school, I guess and worry about what others will think.

Anyway, that's about it for me today. I love blogs and cannot understand why I can never manage to update mine on a consistent basis. Guess it might be different if I had followers!

Crazy!

It's amazing how quickly life can change, isn't it? Believe me, this was NOT what I expected to see when I took these 3 tests on April 15, 2011. Granted, I had hoped it would happen eventually but not after only 2 months of trying.

Now I graduate with a Master's degree on May 6 and we get married on May 7th. I would have never imagined life would change so drastically for me. Good things do really happen if you are patient and let it be.

Definitely single no more

Well, I got engaged! What a year it has been. I'm still trying to gather my thoughts so I can put this down on paper. It's going to be a very quick engagement and we're planning a courthouse wedding for May 5, 2011, before I graduate on May 6, 2011. Off to the Bahamas on May 9, 2011. My head is spinning with excitement!!

My how things have changed

I decided, on a whim, to see what my old self had written over two years ago and man how things have changed. First off, who was that sad and miserable girl from years back? If only she'd have known how she'd get her heart broken again and then find the man of her dreams in less than two years.

Yes, I have met someone. To be honest, I think we're going to be getting married very soon (although there is no "official" confirmation of this...right now). Our story, to be as cliche as possible, is whirlwind. We met, fell in love and I guess, as they say, the rest is history.

I cannot imagine my life without him. He is everything I am not. I only hope that one day I can be even half as wonderful as he is. I am a very, very lucky girl.

I am hoping to be able to chronicle our life and how things are going to change over the next few months. We are in the process of trying to relocate, take the next step in our relationship and hopefully one day start a family. Let's see where this journey takes me...