Will the constant screaming and fussiness ever stop? Seriously, how do single moms do this? I feel like I've got an F in the mom category today, for sure. Josh went to class last night and things were normal at the house. I actually was able to clean up the kitchen while Oliver was still awake. For some reason, 6:30 rolled around and all hell broke loose. There was literally NOTHING I could do to appease him. He just eats and eats and screams in between. Like we are starving him or something. I took a photo of him screaming because all of his food was gone but I'm guessing I shouldn't share that one because one day he will be embarrassed by that.
Honestly, I don't feel like a good mom at all today. I finally had to take a break, put him in his crib, shut the door and went downstairs for about 20 minutes until Josh got home from class and he took care of him. Then I spent the rest of my waking evening checking on Oliver, wanting to wake him up and tell him how sorry I am that I got frustrated with him. I can normally calm him by putting him in the bathtub and letting him splash around. Last night? Not so much. What am I doing wrong?? Does he have another ear infection that we need to attend to? Is this parenthood thing EVER going to get easier?
In a word, I'm defeated. Absolutely defeated today. Plus, Josh's mom bailed on our dinner plans and gave no explanation so I have officially closed my heart to her forever.
I'm hoping in a month or so I will look back on posts like this and laugh, seeing my content baby flourishing. I really hope other mamas have days like this. Today I pray for strength and guidance. Nothing more.
No matter how crazy our house gets, these two still stick together.