Monday, May 14, 2012

Brain dump

Both Oliver and I woke up not feeling so great yesterday morning and it continued over into this Monday as well.  We finally went out and got a video monitor to put in Oliver's room and, wouldn't you know it, he kept waking up so he eventually ended up in mama and daddy's room in the Rock n Play.  Such is my luck!

Hope everyone had a wonderful Mother's Day.  To be honest, I spent the entire weekend in a funk.  I feel, professionally, like nothing I do is ever good enough and that I am allowed to be talked to in any way they deem appropriate.  I guess it's the nature of the beast where I work but I've just about had enough of it.  Saturday I had all but convinced myself that I'd come in this morning and say enough was enough.  At this point, if I had the ability, there is not doubt in my mind that I would.  I feel like I'm doing both myself and Oliver a disservice living this way.

I am struggling with wondering if this blog is even worth it.  I try and write informative things and also give my family a chance to get out there and meet new people but I never get comments, etc.  How do really successful blogs do that??  Seriously, I could use some advice.  This will definitely be a good scrapbook for Oliver when he gets older and I sure would love to have a record should I have any additional pregnancies.  I guess I am just frustrated today.

I guess I don't have much to say today.  I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend and week to come!  Thanks for stopping by and checking out our life.


  1. Hi, I found your blog thanks to Kellys Link Up. I completely understand your frustration with your blog. It can get really discouraging when your wondering if anyone is "listening". Just remember why you started your blog, and go from there. Even if you never get comments, if it helps give you a place to store your thoughts then go for it.

  2. Valerie, I know how you feel. I don't even have a supportive or caring family which is frustrating when you are raising kids...I do have a wonderful husband and my boys are worth it all! I just remember that I am blogging to preserve our wonderful memories for my kids and that's all that matters. I have printed one blog book already and have about six more ready to print (at over a 100 pages each, they are pretty expensive!). I didn't start blogging to get followers and "brag" about my life. I want a record of all that we do together. Hope you are feeling better! Oliver is such a little cutie!

  3. Thanks so much ladies. I don't want to be this big deal or anything. I just started feeling a little stupid that I write this stuff but think hmmm is anybody even reading it??