Insanity

I never in a billion years thought I'd ever be doing this post.  Let alone so soon.  But....

Yep, it's true.

There is no way this is real life.  It's still insanely early and I should not be blogging or telling anyone about this just yet.  But I decided with Oliver that I would not be afraid to enjoy being pregnant and I told pretty much everyone from almost day one.  Whether or not something bad happened is irrelevant.  At this point, I love this baby just as much as Oliver and I'm so hopeful for his/her future.

Josh seems to be excited as well.  The grin on his face when I told him it was positive was hilarious.  My cycles have been so messed up from having Oliver that I'm not 100% sure how far along I am, although if I had to guess I'm thinking I'm due January 31, 2013.

So, there's my big news.  I haven't even had 24 hours to let it soak in yet.  It was very appropriate for me that I found this out the day my family laid my grandmother to rest.  Such a horrible beginning to a day that ended with such amazing news.

I want to take a second to say, and I do mean this with every fiber of my being, my heart aches for those who have trouble getting pregnant.  I will never understand why or how this seems to happen without difficulty for me and Josh.  Please know that I will NEVER take it for granted.  I think about women with fertility problems all the time and I get so sad.  I wish everyone could experience the joy of seeing a positive test.  I hope these don't seem like platitudes because I could not be more genuine.  I pray every night for other women who desperately want a baby.  May you find your happiness very, very soon.

Obviously I will keep this blog updated now as the weeks progress.  Hopefully I'll be able to get an appointment with my OB soon so I can get a definite due date.

Thanks for stopping by!  Wow, let the crazy ride begin again.